don't let me off the hook.

I don't want to say something that will make me happy for just the moment

we fell out of touch... 14 tries and not even one success.

I was in a hurry one day and completely passed you by. thoughts after the fact and when I had realized my mistake consumed me in waking and what little sleep I could find between my sheets. cold, empty, and lonely. the hollow swallowed everything in its wake. waves crashing and drowning me in the churning waters. the abyss drew darkness around me. never had I felt like I found my place. without the life I thought I knew and I loved. neither of which I got enough of.

finally I've stopped. although it's already too late. I know there is never enough time. I never have enough breaths in a moment to speak the silence eating my insides. the air that's run out lost it's way to my blank mind and every remaining thought grew to a light at the end of my tunnel. I've come to no where where no one else has come before. despite everything and myself I can still hope to see you when you get here too, I can hold you if you get here too.