happenstance

there's a renewed faith in that which I tried so hard to run away from.
so hard infact, that I became obsessed with it.
I know it's a dangerous game to play.
I'd fill my "plate" with feelings to the point of too much.
it would take breaking down and disassociating myself to open my eyes.
and yet somehow I always remained blind. even now I still may be.
I'd like to repair what desire I used to feed within so that maybe...
maybe it'll be real this next time.
this time.
maybe I'll know it for the reality I so often wished it was.
then... back then in the blink of an eye I'd see that it wasn't.
not the last time. any of them. even that once.

besides the point I fell from, I keep seeing things. [smile]

and now, to bike!

everyone, I would like to introduce you all to colin

colin means strong; young and virile

hello stranger

"its like you turned off or something."
nothing wrong could have been
said, done, looked, thought, felt
upclose and a person wouldn't look this long
but it's not just anything
he's going to teach me how to dance
I'll be awake this next time, promise.